Looking for answers

This is my third pregnancy, and EVERYTHING has seemed very different! Not just how I'm carrying our baby, and how fast I'm growing, but my emotions have been much different.

I know that we are having a girl, but I'm suspicious that is not the only reason that things have been off. I can't consentrate, I'm very moody and then I'm not. I am exhausted and then I am awake and ready for action. I will get in a mood that feels like a "fog" and I can't make it go away....no, I'm not thinking of hurting myself, or my husband, or my kids. If I had been feeling like that, I would have done something about it long before now.

With a deployment looming in our future, and recent problems at home, I finally did it. I made an appointment to see if I really do have depression, and what can be done about it while I'm still pregnant.

I know that with our first son I had some minor problems after I gave birth, but I figured out how to work through that one....this has been going on for a while now, and I can't shake it!

I'm not a depressed person, at least I don't think so. And I thought I had a handle on myself. But, now it just seems like I can't do anything...and making people mad seems to be my skill right now.

I have noticed my posts are not the same on my blog, but I thought it may have been something that just happens...you run out of things to say every now and then, but then it started trickling down into everything! Laundry, cooking, my relationships...EVERYTHING!

I'm looking for answers and I hope to find some soon!